Sometimes I Wonder

"Sometimes I wonder what it feels like to be God.

What it feels like to create a living being from nothing and love it more than anything. What is it like to create millions of these wonderful beings knowing full well that so many of them will despise your very existence and create them anyways. What does it feel like to be hated by the thing you love most. What’s it like for one of them to say they love you more than anything but for their actions to prove the opposite. What is it like to give knowing they can never give as much back to you. What is it like when you give someone a second, third, fourth, tenth chance knowing that they will still fail you. What is it like to always end up with the  short end of the stick. What must it be like to be the most powerful thing in existence yet place yourself very last. What is it like to be hated for being love itself. Sometimes I wonder these things and it makes me unbelievably thankful that I’m on the opposite end.

I know I can never return the love that God has for me to the full extent that He has given it but it doesn't mean I can’t give Him everything I have." 

-Adriana Maravilla

Satisfaction

‎"The birds of the air and the beasts of the earth and the fishes of the sea are satisfied when they have enough food for themselves. But since man is not satisfied with the things of this world and always longs for others, it is clear that he was not made primarily for them but for others. For the body was made for the sake of the soul, and this world for the sake of the other world" - St. Giles

Confusion

When in doubt of everything, just love. It’s the simple answer to your confusion.

Longing

"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end." -Ecclesiastes 3:11

Learning from the Past.

Even Jesus kept His wounds.

Single

During their single years of life, a person can either find themselves or lose themselves.

Empitness

"How often have we sought love where we know it won't be found?" -How To Find Your Soulmate Without Losing Your Soul, by Jason & Crystalina Evert

Complaining

"Don’t wear a cross around your neck if all you’re going to do is complain about the one on your back. Prayer is where the cross changes shoulders." -sermoveritas

2011

As the years have gone by, I’ve grown so much in my relationship with God. So much so that it has come to this point where I’ve just recently broken out of the phase of “emotional faith” and I’m just learning, growing, and experiencing the lessons of faith where I simply examine what I’m DOING, what I’m FEELING, and I simply just CHOOSE to follow Him. 

So far, life has been like when I first met Him, except I feel like I understand so much more about my faith. Not so much the facts or the feelings of it, but the divinity of it. 

The area of faith where it isn’t because of human reason or emotion, but the simple complexity of faith based on Him. Faith as a gift from Him. Like how the Church is not held up because of the effort of humans, but by God’s grace. 

Not because I love Him.. but simply because He loves me. 

To be honest, I’m not too sure if I love God as much as I think or hope I do. Heck, I’m not even too sure where my faith is going. 

But I’ve simply chosen to stay despite all the tests He’s brought me through and I persevered through all the hurtful truths, and I have to say 2011 has been a crazy roller coaster ride. 

I’m looking forward not just to a new year, but to an ever changing and growing life that is renewed in Christ every day. 

I choose to love. I choose God. Simple as that. 

Decide that in your heart and God will take you to heights (and battlefields) you’ve never imagined. 

True story. :)

Men

"St. Joseph is the prime example of a man. All because he has the fear of the Lord. He loved his family so much, that he was willing to die for them. He was quiet, and the Bible didn't have much to say about him. But that's because a real man doesn't need to be bragged about." -via Annie Au